it seems like everytime you ever do look for me voluntarily or answer my smses/msn convos properly, is when we're talking about sentio. we don't talk about anything else anymore, or we just don't talk at all. i appreciate what you guys are doing for the concert, for me, but its putting all that distance between us. its become scre without much fighting from both sides. you're gonna stay. i'm gonna go. there isn't the need to remind me how out of place i'll be in the future. and so it all begins. and so it all ends.

i just wish i have someone to lean on sometimes. its getting so tiring just trying to stand up alone. you see, but you don't seem to really see me anymore.

i've never felt more weary or alone.